Wednesday, July 23, 2008

bleah

dear jess,

i find with great difficulty fulfilling my new job "scope" of late. teaching preschoolers. im at this point in my life where i can opt to lecture and for reasons such as the simple one of actually having to work everyday i have decided to, for now, continue doing what i do. alas, that has to include teaching drama to preschoolers.

i love teaching teens, primary students but preschoolers? one boy in the initial weeks scratched his crotch and told me that it was in pain, so i asked him if hes ok and he shifted his privates and said "its ok, its just the foreskin."

blink.


what i dont get tho, is adults. in fact, thats probably why i don't work a normal job anymore. i dont have to pretend to have coonversations that are interesting with them during lunch, neither do i have to go on and on about how i hate my job and would rather be doing something else- but never ever doing it. miserable things adults are, no? :) (insert footnote: read the little prince for reference to this para)

i had to takeover from a broken down, almost in tears teacher at a kinde today. the principal complains to me that parents dont see the "results" of having speech and drama for their kids, and she wants to see a performance by the end of the month! parents complained that all they did in drama was "play"

blink.
foreskin! i wanted to say.

mam, speech and drama for preeschoolers, is a play activity - there are no reuslts, or rather, it isnt result based. should i blame it on our asian culture of only keeping things around if they serve a immediate forseeable result???

they have lived in the world for four to six years and yes, that is what we do, that is how they learn- play. don insult jean piaget the great psychologist for his years of research! if the world would only stop wanting to see results for a minute and learned to play, the world would be alot better. and we all would be alot happier! oh God i hope i dont become the almost in tears teacher seven months down the road!

yours,
jess

Saturday, July 12, 2008

a change is gonna come... perhaps

"people dont change, if people can change would you be you ?"
from Samantha Who

dear jess,

good question huh? ive been gushing about samantha who? its, to me, currently the best comedy series. in this episode, samantha's alcoholic bestie tells samantha's other bestie deana,- the overweight girl who was always left out in school and still remains rather a sore thumb "people dont change, if people can change would you be you?" and deana, goes "she has a point"

the essence of good comedy, laughing at the truth.

sure, now its all about "being true to ourselves" and the fact that we are that way and we "wont change for others." but seriously think about it? one of the conversations i seem to have with my "alcoholic bestie" is how that person who we knew 20 years ago is still irritating, the other one still not matured and some others still pick their nose or scratch their crotch in public. we may have our degrees, great jobs, and nice cars, but some things about us dont change, sometimes not the most presentable thing. one thing about us has definitely changed- our skill to justify all our nasty habits and characteristics!

signing off like i always have,
yours,
jess