dear jess,
A really weird thing happened today at music & arts ministry christmas' last rehearsal. After the first run i was about to 'scold' the team.. haha... and to my amazement, shock and worse of all HORROR i felt like crying. my voice started to crack, and i couldnt talk! i couldnt control my emotions, as i expressed deep sorrow and dissapointment in the choir's lack of focus. What was happening?? and in public? was i about to express tears in front of everyone and pleaseee what will people think?
Well, thats that, and i still dont know what people think, altho i didnt break down in tears. But honestly, what is wrong with expressing our emotions in public. I mean what is wrong with people who go aroung thinking that the only right emotion, is.. really NONE. Too much happiness means you're insane, too much tears means, your life is going wrong, too much anger means its wrong for you to react that way.. and by too much, i mean showing any emotion at all.
Sigh, now that im done babling.. im not looking forward to Christmas, simply because i fear it. The first Christmas without mama and aunty Marie. I fear how its gonna be, I fear not knowing how everyone willl react. This is one Christmas, none of us are looking forward to. And you know whoever said time heals all wounds?? i think he was a liar.. Probably the same person who endorsed a non - emotional society..
your sadly, happily, and angrily,
jess
1 comment:
live life to the fullest by expressing yourself emotionally, don't hold back with sadness and happiness. the crazy man that laughs in his own world, i envy him,coz his happiness is to the fullest. noone should tell u , u shouldn't feel angry, sad , its like teling someone don't express yourself. keep it within you like a ticking timebomb...so u see.. that's how the crazy man became insane.. his timebomb didn't explode..it got defused.
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