i do look back. And sometimes my past doesnt seem to inspire my future, and you wonder if you change at all. Whilst people cling on to the past, i just want me to change drastically, but maybe its everyone else around me i want to change so that they be more like me. The church reminds me of my faith, and im still challenged at what that means. An internal wager to reach 'normality' versus spirituality as i find out from the aussie guidebook tat taiping has the oldest church in malaysia! nope, its not this one though, its in my previous post..